I've said it before, that cons are just becoming ridiculously unprofitable for me - why? I don't know. Is it because I don't sell large poster-sized prints? (I could . . . ) Is it because I don't have a huge display? Is it because I don't go to the right cons? (I'm at ACEN right now) . . . . well, someone may know, but not me. And frankly, I think its too ridiculous for me anymore. So this is the end of cons.

Honestly, I don't know why I bought a print subscription for DA, thats been completely pointless as well (and so has trying to sell my manga online). Am I not good enough? Or are the prices just too much . . . .

I love drawing, its like life to me. But this kind of discouragement doesn't go over well. Thank you all who have supported me through these last several cons, and to all my friends who have come with me either to sell with me or just to help me out. But as of ACEN 2008, I'm calling it quits.

Its hard to give up something I love so much, especially when I have so much invested in it already (not only things like my laminator and badge stuff, but also the time for drawing these pictures) . . . I wish drawing anime could support me as a living. But it doesn't. I may still draw some for fun, but most likely the updates will be much like this past year, where they were few and far between. I'm also gonna miss cosplaying - I just did the medicine seller from mononoke, and I loved it! But that is also an expensive hobby. I want to (and need to) put more effort into searching for a full-time job (especially an illustration position, what I really want!) . . . . I also want a ps3 and a psp, but I have neither time nor money for those. We can't have everything we want, can we . . . .

Aaaaa~ *sigh*

I also had $100 stolen from me because I'm an idiot and forgot my wallet on top of a parking meter thing. But someone was amazing and returned the actual wallet to me . . . still with my bank cards (and my social security card!) still intact.


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No one entered my fanart contest. Should I extend the deadline? Or is no one going to at all? . . . . . . .